Friday, February 17, 2012

It's worth it. Right?

I am not in a good mood. I'm tired of saying no to food. I'd rather just not eat at all than have to keep making these choices. Today I had to go to the grocery store to pick up some things for dinner with the family tomorrow night. It took all my power to not get some junk. Cravings are supposed to diminish. I mean thats what everybody says. Ok well how long does that take because I would do a great many things right now for a bag of cheetos, a piece of cheesecake, and a liter of Dr. Pepper. How can something so delicious be bad? I'm glad its time to go to bed. If I felt this way in the afternoon I don't think I would have made it. Things are not looking up. Tomorrow is dinner with the family, another chance to face food demons (pie and homeade rolls). I'm glad to be seeing my aunt who is coming into town but I would rather not have to watch everyone eat pie in front of me. I DON'T WANT TO SAY NO! Ok well I better stop this little rant before I start pulling out my hair and using my treasure trove of self-pity and profanity. Goodnight all.

5 comments:

  1. I know that feeling. Like sometimes it's easier to just not eat, rather than try to make these choices all the time. But if you don't say no, you'll just wind up regretting it later.

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  2. Maybe at dinner, just have one bite of each thing? That way your mind doesn't feel deprived and you can get over it and move on?

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    1. I did just that! My plate looked a little silly but it helped me get through.

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  3. How I can relate, sometimes it just plain sucks that we have to watch everything we put in our mouth while others can eat whatever they want and not worry about their weight. I want to pout and cry like a little 2 year old some days but I have to remind myself I have two options, go ahead and eat that crap and gain all the weight back or refrain from it and keep this weight off.

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    1. It's good to know I'm not the only one who will acknowledge the suckiness of the whole thing. It seems everyone around is upbeat and motivated and I'm just a whiny cry baby all the time.

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