Friday, February 17, 2012
It's worth it. Right?
I am not in a good mood. I'm tired of saying no to food. I'd rather just not eat at all than have to keep making these choices. Today I had to go to the grocery store to pick up some things for dinner with the family tomorrow night. It took all my power to not get some junk. Cravings are supposed to diminish. I mean thats what everybody says. Ok well how long does that take because I would do a great many things right now for a bag of cheetos, a piece of cheesecake, and a liter of Dr. Pepper. How can something so delicious be bad? I'm glad its time to go to bed. If I felt this way in the afternoon I don't think I would have made it. Things are not looking up. Tomorrow is dinner with the family, another chance to face food demons (pie and homeade rolls). I'm glad to be seeing my aunt who is coming into town but I would rather not have to watch everyone eat pie in front of me. I DON'T WANT TO SAY NO! Ok well I better stop this little rant before I start pulling out my hair and using my treasure trove of self-pity and profanity. Goodnight all.