Mac and Cheese is NOT what I had for dinner

Even though thats what everyone else had for dinner. I don't want anything bad today... specifically. I really just want that feeling, that high, those tastes in my mouth, the delicious flavors. I'm craving the feeling of being full on carbs and candy. I know its bad and I always feel bad later but lets not pretend that while its happening that it doesn't feel wonderful. I feel like those girls in movies going through detox with the night sweats. I made it through another day, but it was tough. Oooh I just wanted to be bad, real bad, like ice cream and pastries and Whataburger bad. I know this takes time. I know there are bad days but I really just wanna lay down and say "you win addiction" and let it take me. 

But even with all that I ate a crazy amount of veggies today. 

Breakfast: Fiber One cereal, a fruit smoothie

Lunch: Two wraps with whole wheat tortilla, lettuce, spinach, veggie mix (corn, red pepper, yellow pepper, zucchini, red onion, carrot, and brown rice -from yesterday) turkey, and avocado

Dinner: Beef fajita meat, salad with lettuce, spinach, broccoli, red onion, carrot, radish, and salad dressing (full fat yes I admit it)

I also had 3 caramelized onion, feta, and rosemary muffins I got from the Prevention RD blog. I only meant to have 2 but.............

So I haven't given up yet but today was not easy. Everything in me wanted to give in. Hopefully I'll feel stronger tomorrow. Today I'm just glad there is no junk food in this house.