Friday, September 2, 2011

Mac and Cheese is NOT what I had for dinner

Even though thats what everyone else had for dinner. I don't want anything bad today... specifically. I really just want that feeling, that high, those tastes in my mouth, the delicious flavors. I'm craving the feeling of being full on carbs and candy. I know its bad and I always feel bad later but lets not pretend that while its happening that it doesn't feel wonderful. I feel like those girls in movies going through detox with the night sweats. I made it through another day, but it was tough. Oooh I just wanted to be bad, real bad, like ice cream and pastries and Whataburger bad. I know this takes time. I know there are bad days but I really just wanna lay down and say "you win addiction" and let it take me. 

But even with all that I ate a crazy amount of veggies today. 
Breakfast: Fiber One cereal, a fruit smoothie
Lunch: Two wraps with whole wheat tortilla, lettuce, spinach, veggie mix (corn, red pepper, yellow pepper, zucchini, red onion, carrot, and brown rice -from yesterday) turkey, and avocado
Dinner: Beef fajita meat, salad with lettuce, spinach, broccoli, red onion, carrot, radish, and salad dressing (full fat yes I admit it)

I also had 3 caramelized onion, feta, and rosemary muffins I got from the Prevention RD blog. I only meant to have 2 but.............

So I haven't given up yet but today was not easy. Everything in me wanted to give in. Hopefully I'll feel stronger tomorrow. Today I'm just glad there is no junk food in this house.

3 comments:

  1. Thanks for your comment on my blog. I look forward to following your progress!!

    Keep focused!

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  2. Stay focused on the end-result of eating well. Eat lean protein so you're full and satisfied. See those cravings for what they are: addiction. Deal with it like an addiction - one day, one moment, one millisecond at a time if you need to. And for God's sake stay away from people who have the same addiction! You wouldn't expect a heroine addict to stay clean while hanging around with other heroine addicts. Why hang around people who indulge in your drug of choice?

    Some might think I'm overstating the power of food as an addiction. But you and I know better. I say to hell with underestimating it's power and failing as a result. I'm fighting back. I'm glad that you are too.

    You go, Sarah!

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  3. Your wrap sounds SO yummy!!! Fighting cravings is tough but nothing feels better than knowing at the end of the day that you've won over them.

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