I'm feeling........ meh.
I just read the wonderful comments left on yesterday's blog and they were so uplifting and wonderful. But I've been riding the fine edge of addiction all day long. I honestly feel like I am on the brink of completely breaking down. Some people say that you eventually learn how to defeat cravings. Some say that you need to indulge your cravings once in awhile. I just feel so tense and I'm obsessing about eating food. These past 3 days have been hell. Is it okay to break the glass in case of emergency? Is it time to indulge a little? Or is that an addiction delusion? Can I really have some things I want and then move on? Is it better to live in my own personal hell a little longer and hope it gets better? I feel like the word "no" is about to drive me insane. I'm doing so well. What is the right move?
What worked for me was to find a balance between overindulgence and complete denial of cravings. I can't completely deny myself things, because then I crave them so intensely that I binge. So I allow myself small quantities of the things I want - I can't buy blocks of cheese, but I'll get two slices from the deli or a single piece of string cheese and I feel satisfied. Certain foods I abstain from entirely - certain meals, for example, because I know I won't be able to control my portioning. Abstaining is tough but *does* get easier - something that helped with that was a personal challenge I set to try one new recipe a week. If I am not bored with my eating, then I am less likely to crave the old junk I used to eat.
ReplyDelete